hmm.. today ptm session...
so no school today. =))
woke up around 8? then get ready etc etc...
then.. mum slow sia. =x
got out of the house at 9+ =.="""
anywayy.
basically. my results... still okay..
except for my languages...
which are as bad as ever. =x
my command of language is poor T.T boohoos..
c5 for both... humans b3...
err... then.. 3 a1 and 1 a2? think so luh.
forget ler. then...
after taking results... went to cp mac to eat...
with cher they all.
then. funny. kanna they all looking for trouble. =.="
ppl want fight. but.. they talk no action leh?
dont know them. nevermind =/

after that went back to school as one big big group. mixed race.
not racist ya. =)))
but no malays.. =/ they never join us.
watch the guys played bball.. and went up to the hall play badminton for awhile...
and went for dance...
DAMN PISSED OFF. =.="''"""
stupid siaa...
accidentally slammed the dance studio door. =xx *oops*
hee. somemore ms lee inside sia =/
nvm. was too angry to think about such stuffs just now.
hehhhs.

after that... went to mrt meet ah gong they all to watch "the leap years"
lols.. ask me dont late they also late. =xx
but still early for the show lah.. just made us wait nia..
*hungry just now* =x
stupiddddddddddddddd. movie ticket so ex.
ah gong say if ticket too ex jiu dont want watch.
in the end. she still paid. LOL.
crappo. =x
sweet, sad, touching, NICE. =))
dont know how to describe.. hee.
nice show overall lah.
just abit confusing with the scene skipping at the beginning...
=DDDD sian luhs.
lalalalaaaaaa. after that.. walked around np for awhile...
hmm.. today alot of coincidence... saw alot ppl today.
=) hahas..

i hate being emo...
and emo-ing sucks..
but.. argh. emo-ing so much recently.
cant control. this sucks lah!!!
HATE EMO. *helps* =(

yesterday and today... went to the library to study... *do homework actually*...
haiis.... but... nothing much to update actually...
friday... stayed back after school to wait for my dad for the parents' seminar thing...
wasted 3 hours of my life... staying there and chatting with eereena.....
had fun though..
chatted with gan too.
hmm... then.. parents came out.. and went home...
eereena's dad drove us home..
hmm... lols. sounding emo.. =.=""
lols.. you had no idea... what you are doing to me..
can i say that guys are dense? or girls are complicated?
i hate it i hate it i hate it!
that's what i got from comforting you. lols..
i guess.. im just nothing but your mei.
it's a fact. isnt it? made me cry the whole afternoon.
and now. it's another girl ya.
how i wish... there isnt such thing as boy-girl love in the world.
it can give you happiness.. yet cause you great sufferings..
maybe i should just dont give it a damn anymore!

hohoho. today went to jas' house. =))))
to bai nian actually... she invited us..
but then.. in the end.
ended up helping her sell her stuffs at her condo. lol!
then kena sun burnt.. =.=""
but anyway. i had a fun time. =)
then.. went to jas' house after she packed her "store" and watch them play a game of mahjong.
i want learn mahjong!!!
lols. oh ya. bought a nerd pooh bear from her. lols.
and.. got ang bao! <33 lols =x
then... went home @ 2.
rushed home actually.. to eat lunch.
then set out for movie with family @ cwp ^^
hmm.. watched ah long pte ltd. damn funny. =))))
got a part quite touching too. lols. =x
lalala~ i like the song. =PPP
then after movies... shop around cwp for awhile...
and then home-d. =)
now eating abalone!! hohoho! =xx hees.
end here ya. maybe posting pics tmr. ^^

hohoho. it's the fifth day of chinese new year.
collected lots of ang bao. =DD
hehh.. well... first day of new year went to visit my paternal grandma.
^^ then after that.. went to her brother's house i think. =/
then... maternal grandma. lols..
then homed. so nothing much to post actually.

second day of chinese new year.
woke up the earliest. =x then... bathed and all... get ready to welcome my aunts, uncles, and cousins in.
=// alot of ppl sia. all come at once. hohoho $.$ =x
lols. anyway. then after that went to paternal grandma house again.
for reunion dinner =D
hadd lunch there too.
well.. played a few rounds of audi there..
played blackjack.. err.. dai di?
and gambled! lols...
but suay sia... keep losing. =x nvm play for fun de.. money not mine anyway.
then... lao yu sheng. =/ my cousins lao until the thing on my hand. lols...
thennnnnnnnn. i forget ler. i think homed after a few more rounds of gambling.
never drink champagne.. sad. =x

lols then third day..... stupid sisters go out... left me and my lil sis going visit with my mum.
visit her siblings.. sian.. all so stingy de. =x
visit her sis and her bro nia.. took up the whole day. =.="
waste my time for $20~~ =x oops. heh...
nevermind. $20 still money. XPP

then... yesterday. went to visit.. whoever lah. i dont know how to translate to english.
lols.. then went to my 2nd aunt's house to visit... and took photos. sian sia.
i hate solo pics. =(
anyway. after that.. went down to another whoever's house with them.
i really dont know how to translate. =/
then... their house so high. 21st floor.. i think..
nice scene there too. =/
hohoho. then uncle sent us home.
and dined with paternal grandma! <33 ^^
hohoho. then... watched tv with her and then sh went home..
then.. chiong homework and all...
then.. slept at 1+.. i think...

then today... nothing much...
went popular buy stuffs..
ah gong. i bought zig zag ler... be patient before i read finish.
hohoho~~~~ =P

okay. happy new year to all here. ending now. =)

Kuroi Namida
(Black Tears)

ANNA TSUCHIYA inspi' NANA (BLACK STONES)


Romaji

Asu nante konai you ni to negatta yoru kazoe kirenai
Yume mo ai mo nakushi ame ni utareta mama naiteru...

Kazaritsukenaide kono mama no watashi de ikite yuku tame
Nani ga hitsyou
Jibun sae shinjirezu nani wo shinjitara ii no
Kotae wa chikasugite mienai

Kuroi namida nagasu
Watashi ni wa nanimo nakute kanashisugite
Kotoba ni sae naranakute
Karadajuu ga itamidashite
Taerarenai hitori dewa

Yonaka ni nakitsukarete egaita jibun ja nai jibun no kao
Yowasa wo kakushita mama egao wo tsukuru no wa yameyou...

Kazaritsukenaide ikute yuku koto wa kono yo de ichiban
Muzukashii koto?
Anata kara morau nara katachi no nai mono ga ii
Kowareru mono wa mou iranai

Kuroi namida nagashi sakendemo
Shiranu kao de ashita wa kite
Onaji itami ni butsukaru
Sonna hibi wo tsuzukeru nara
Tooku kiete shimaitai
Wagamama to wakattemo...

Kuroi namida nagasu
Watashi ni wa nanimo nakute kanashisugite
Kotoba ni sae naranakute
Karadajuu ga itamidashite

Kuroi namida nagashi sakendemo
Shiranu kao de ashita wa kite
Onaji itami ni butsukaru
Sonna hibi wo tsuzukeru nara
Tooku kiete shimaitai
Wagamama to wakattemo...

English

There are countless nights I wished tomorrow would never come
Crying in the rain, having lost love and dreams...

What do I need
In order to live as I am without affectation?
If I can't believe in myself, what should I believe?
The answer is so close I can't see it

I cry black tears
I have nothing and I'm so sad
I can't even put it into words
My whole body is in pain
And I can't stand it alone

Exhausted from crying in the night, I pictured myself as someone else
I'm going to stop making myself smile to hide my weakness...

Is living as yourself without affectation
The most difficult thing in the world?
If I could have something from you, I'd like it to be something intangible
I don't want anything else that can break

Though I cry black tears and shout
Tomorrow comes, uncaring
And I run into the same pain
If these days are going to continue
I'd rather disappear somewhere far away
Even though I know it's selfish...

I cry black tears
I have nothing and I'm so sad
I can't even put it into words
My whole body is in pain

Though I cry black tears and shout
Tomorrow comes, uncaring
And I run into the same pain
If these days are going to continue
I'd rather disappear somewhere far away
Even though I know it's selfish...

uhh... back to update..
anyway.. yesterday.. nothing much...
after school went for dance practice...
thought they having welcome party..
so skipped lunch...
even if no party... also no time eat.
went up dance studio. and.. changed.
blah blah blahh. they said welcome party after dance lesson..
anyway.. uhh... rehearsed the cny dance... and rehearsed in hall..
then... ugh... i dont want to partner her...
giggling is totally not my fault.. i did not giggled with her.
i was just smiling. CANT YOU SEE THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN GIGGLING AND SMILING?
who the hell would want to giggle with her anyway.
haiis.. you are just being biased. other ppl noticed some OTHER ppl's mistakes. and you picked on us only. and i think i understand why.
nevermind.. then after that.... went back studio to practice the dance again..
then.. blah blah blahh..
we watched the non-cny-performers dance the indian folk dance.. quite nice..
and i do agree that the sec 1s learn quite fast.. i think..
then.... after that.. split into groups.. for the external performance and achievement day performance..
i was not in the external. wtf lah... i did attend classes regularly... if you did not say the performance was due to attendance. i would not say much anyway. i do agree that my dance aint that good. but at least i was trying. and i did attend classes. eeling told me that you chose the performers due to attendance.. dont you know that you are being so biased?
ughh. anyway. after dance.. was in a quite better mood. but.. zzz... after dance..
went down to find ganesh they all with my ball.. to play volleyball...
but.. ...... stupid.. im bringing a heavy bag and even brought my ball down for them to play.
and. in the end. all i got from rat was a 'i no mood play'.
wtf lah.. then i stood there not happy ler. still ask me want go mac eat. WTF LAH.
grr.. then grabbed my ball from them and walked off. stupidity.cried. lols..
then... went to grace to buy food.. *emo*.
err.. lols.. anyway... went back to school.. saw qiu yi and ruiliing outside councillor room.
so chat with them... then.... ah gong smsed me... so.. went back take back and went home..
then that's all.. some stupid thing happened at home too. cried a total of 3-4 times.

then today... went to woodlands library to study.. ben lai was meeting wei ren and ask him find a few ppl who's going then tell me..
but. in the end. too many ppl going ler....
so decided to go study myself...
weird thing is. when i was sitting there doing my homework.
ppl was like coming to my table there and sitting there to read. =.="?
and i noticed that alot of other tables have lots of unoccupied seats..
lol.. nvm.. then.. halfway through weiren come down and join me..
so. peace still.. then around 4.. henry and jia hou came down find us ask us go up study together..
so finished my e maths qns and went up...
good thing i did not decided to go up study with them earlier on.
1+ hour for 3/4 of one english essay..
that's how much work can be done with them.
and i had to move away from them then can continue my work...
pathetic sia. lols..
then.. 5.30 left library... to go yishun play bball..
but 6.30.. reached cp... they went mac eat..
i also eat.. but it was cos i hungry. =(
breakfast + lunch = one small bowl of porridge nia..
haiis.. doing homework halfway stomach growling. lols...
ermm.. then.. after eating... go play bball..
already.. around 7.30 ler.. lols...
played till 8.. and went home with henry.. cos he living in sembawang..
ermm.. then.. talked alot of chim chim things with him. =/
ayy.. all think so far de... know what courses they taking ler...
sian diao... i now still dont know.... =((
then... he told me how stress he was. lols.. and.. blah blah blahh..
then... went home.. and here i am. updating about my stupid life..

ending off. - life sucks.